This poem actually happened. I was strolling in the village one late afternoon when different thoughts about my future rushed into my mind. All of a sudden I became afraid of an uncertain future. I just wrote how I felt because I was the only person I could talk to and it turned out to be beautiful.
Mental
Crossroads of a Youth Corps Member
I
had roamed the ends of the earth,
I
had been to the north, the south, the east and the west,
Yet
I found no suitable place to rest my head.
Oh!
My poor heart, tired from the rapid blood pumping action, a consequence of adrenaline
rush.
My
joints, too weak to function;
My
throat, parched from asking for directions and numerous questions that yielded
further questions.
"How do I get a good
job? How would I know my right spouse? Where do I do my Masters? Do I start up
my own business?"
Even
those that yielded answers contradicted one another;
Making
my brain a cave of chaos and disorder;
Just
when I was about to give up, wallow in self pity and join the confused crowd, a
little voice said to me, “Live wisely
and righteously for this moment trusting God for the next.”
Immediately,
warmth radiated from my heart and stamped a smile on my face.
I
felt strength spread through my body;
I
knew I had found it, the answer to all my questions, the answer I was
desperately searching for.
I
had no cause to worry...
I know many corpers would have at one time felt the same way especially towards the end of the service year. You dread being idle after your service that it sometimes makes you desperate to settle for anything and makes you run to anyone who you feel could be of help. You give yourself migraine by asking yourself numerous questions about your future and thinking out about how good or bad it could be. It is very normal to get a little scared because you do not know what the future holds, but you shouldn't let those mind-boggling thoughts and feelings bother you.
Worrying will not and will never make things better, even God concurs with that by telling us not to worry about tomorrow. All you need to do is plan. Have your goals to guide you in making the right choices, watch out for opportunities and be prepared to grab them when they come. Some of my friends I served with are now working in great organisations, some are married, some are furthering their education within and outside the country, some are now living abroad, while some are entrepreneurs. Some are doing what they planned to do while some are doing better than they thought would, but they are all doing fine expect those I haven't heard of. The long and short of the above is...worrying is just a pure waste of time. Fear is just false evidence appearing real which we shouldn't allow to rule us. Do your best to get what you want, leave the rest to God, and you will be just fine.
So plan but do not worry.
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